You would assume one would figure out how much something is ruining their life, sadly for me it has taken many years to figure that out. I have an internet addiction, and it’s ruining my life. Of course, the internet is a wonderful thing, we have gotten so far with the internet. It’s just, once your interest in the internet sparks, with all of the social networking sites, youtube, and etc. how does one know when to quit?
The internet has lifted my spirits, but it has also dropped my self esteem, and social life immensly. I mean, reading my past blogs, I have showed how lonely I am, but what I failed to realize then and up until today is that I relied on the internet and talking to my internet friends more so than the ones I had in real life. I felt as if I could connect with them better than with my friends in real life, and maybe that’s true…but I was still lonely. No physical contact, just words.
It sadly took me a small incident today, when I was sitting alone in the food court of my university, and a guy talked to me. He was in my class, and of the two months of school that I’ve had with him, this was the first time he showed me any acknowledgement…it was nice. That small incident somehow gave me the confidence I that the internet was lacking to give me.
