September 11, 2012

• Together Again

  In elementary school I had a best friend named Skyler. He sadly had to move away from me in sixth grade, and we somehow parted ways and drifted. I never stopped missing him, and to my surprise, he never stopped missing me either. We recently reconnected, and I came open about some things that I’ve been hiding from people for awhile.

  We had the most emotional conversation ever. God, I love him.

  I basically told him about the mental/emotional/slightly physical abuse that I’ve endured through my life. Especially since I live the emotional abuse daily, and the physical abuse happened today. (I’ll skip that part of our conversation for personal purposes).

  Him: Why are you finally telling me all of this now? I mean, I’m just curious is all. I wish I had known…this is…kinda really heavy
  Like hard to hear

  Me: I know I guess I’m just tired of hiding it. I never wanted to tell people because I was ashamed that this is/was my life. But I can’t really handle it anymore

  Him: You shouldn’t have to hide yourself. God knows your a looooot stronger than most people though. And even tho ur finally starting to talk now, it actually makes you more courageous

  Me: The only thing keeping me strong is the thought of having a somewhat normal/tolerable in the future.

  Him: Well if u stay here you will always have me
  I’m sorry Keisha. I’m sorry I was gone for so long

  Me: And you will always have me. I’m sorry too
  I never stopped thinking of you as my best friend

  Him: Truthfully I wasn’t going to tell u cuz…well it sounds weird and pathetic and maybe obsessive but when. Got home last night I ended up crying biz I realized something that has been rather unclear to me. I have been living without my best friend for ten years. And nobody else ever really came close

  Me: I’m crying right now actually, because I’ve missed you a lot too. I would always tell people even in high school that you’re my best friend I always found myself reliving our childhood memories because we didn’t have current ones until recently. I’m glad we’re back together again. I really really am glad. Everything feels right again.

  Him: Can we do each other a favor…since now we r old enough to manage it…and since I have the money at least to take care of gas too lol…can we not leave this time

  Me: I’ll never leave again. I promise
  Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye

  <a title=”Follow Nihaokeisha’s Xanga on Bloglovin” href=”http://www.bloglovin.com/en/blog/4900441″><img border=”0″ alt=”Follow on Bloglovin” src=”http://www.bloglovin.com/widget/bilder/en/lank.gif?id=4900441″></a>

  • 1:55 am
  • 1 Comment