I’m sorry if this offends you in any way dear boyfriend, but what’s been on my mind needs to be said in full, no holds barred.
From the first day we started seeing each other I’ve always noticed how left out you have been when it involves your “friends”. They seem to have a group inside of the group you’re supposably a part of, when in reality you’re the fifth wheel to them. You go unnoticed, and the words you say don’t even reach their ears. It’s like they hear you, and don’t care enough to take yours words and put them into a thought. You try to speak up, and they just speak over you, not caring about anything you have to think or have to say.
I know you try to play it off like it doesn’t bother you, but you can’t fool me. Your “friends” (no offense) are ungrateful, and that would deeply hurt anybody. The reason I say they’re ungrateful is because you take the time out of your day to think about them. You always consider them, for instance stopping by to one of their shows. You took time out of YOUR night, to drive out there to support them, to show them that you cared enough to show up (even if it were just for a moment). What did they do? They said hi and that was basically it, no other words were really spoken to you. They went back to their little “groups” and left you standing there. To see that behavior happen towards you hardens my heart towards them and automatically brands them with the title of worthless in my eyes.
Your friends always tell you “hey man, call me we’ll do something.” Their words are empty. Why is it you that always have to make an effort? Even when you do call, they never seem to have time to spend time with you. When they do invite you to stuff it seems to be a show, and that’s it (maybe I’m wrong about this, but it’s just something I’ve observed). They never really let you in the loop, you always find out things through other people, and those people aren’t really a major part of this “group”. So you’re just finding information from side parties. It is really upsetting to me.
I know we spend time together a lot, but I know sometimes you want time with your friends too. Spending time with your girlfriend vs spending time with your friends can never be compared to one another. There are just different vibes to each, and although you like spending time with me, I understand that sometimes you need a little variation. It just saddens me to see you always looking so sad for something that doesn’t deserve to happen to you.
Your so-called friends don’t know how much of a good person and friend you are. Unless they take notice in you more, they’ll lose you, and it will be their loss and not yours. You’ll find yourself with a whole new group of friends eventually, and they’ll appreciate you a whole lot more. I just hope when you find a new group of friends it will be an actual group and not a heard of sheep. You’ll find friends where everyone has hearts and minds of their own, and can break away from “the leader” and not flock to them like geese.
Just know, when they ditch you, you shouldn’t let it bother you. You’re better than they are, and they’ll realize that eventually. If they don’t, it just shows they never deserved you in their life in the first place.
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