February 10, 2013
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I’m NOT a model, so get off my case.
At my university, I enrolled in Chinese class so I could learn the language….but little did I know, that by enrolling, I would be forced to do a Chinese fashion show (among other things) for a Chinese New Year celebration that will be happening this coming Wednesday.
Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind volunteering and helping out one bit, but today pushed my buttons so much. We (my class) were pretty much automatically recruited to do everything for this celebration (as far as talent shows, dances, etc goes).
My teacher set up a meeting for all of us to gather at this church today to practice our catwalking. She invited one of her friends to teach us how to walk properly and all of this other modeling junk. She taught all of the “volunteers” how to stand properly. She told all of us that we had to stick out our chests, relax our arms, and lower our shoulders. Let me tell you something, there are NO mirrors in this room, so I had no clue how I was looking. Another girl and I apparently weren’t doing it right so she called us out and poked fun at us. I asked her if I could go to the bathroom and practice so I could see what I was doing in the mirrors, but she said “No, I am your mirror”. Yeah, helpful right?At first all of this “poking fun” was funny, and I didn’t care, but we were there for four hours. It was so freaking aggravating to hear constantly, especially when it’s directed at you.
When we started walking she wanted our left foot at 11 o’ clock and our right foot at 2 o’ clock, and as I did that she said I wasn’t doing it right. I know it’s practice and criticism is going to happen, but the way she did it was insulting. She called me out in front of the entire group of people some more…it made me feel EXACTLY how I used to feel when I was in ballet class and the teacher would yell at me and make me cry.
Later on, during the walking she was imitating me in front of the entire group and telling me how bad I looked. She did this several times, and proceeded to tell me that I should look more like a Victoria Secret Angel. Um EXCUSE ME?! I did NOT want to be here, I did NOT sign up for this, and I am NOT a professional. How are you going to make those suggestions towards me? If you wanted every single one of us to be perfect, maybe next time you shouldn’t wait three days before the actual event?
Stupid!!
I’m feeling really low about myself, and I’m super grumpy. >:(
I hate feeling like this T_T
