December 3, 2012
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I have Dermatillomania part 3 (picture)
Look painful?
Trust me, it is.
It is officially finals week and the stress is finally taking a toll on my body. It’s getting to the point where doing simple tasks with my hands is a challenge. I mean, if you need me to open a tightly sealed bag, I would try…but it would get you nowhere.
I feel like a freak when I look at my fingers. It’s like I’m diseased, like I’ve infected myself with the most incurable of illnesses. Except, to me it’s not an illness. I feel as if this is just a bad habit that I should be able to stop..and I can’t. I want to be able to stop, but it seems impossible. When I confide in people they just tell me to stop..which aggravates me like no other.
Do you think I’m picking my flesh for the fun of it? If I could stop don’t you think I would? Try telling an alcoholic to simply not drink anymore, if you’re a smoker why don’t you just stop? Not so easy is it? Ugh….I think I need gloves permanently glued to my hands.
Comments (7)
I am sorry you have that struggle. I hope you can find help to heal both outside and inside.
@TheTheologiansCafe - Thanks Dan, I hope I do too! It might take a long time, but I know I’ll find my way to heal eventually :]
aw. I hope you find a way to stop doing that. i’ve had problems like that in the past, having bad habits I can’t control. and it is really annoying when people tell you to just stop, because it really isn’t that simple. stress makes things like that worse, and finals are definitely stressful. good luck with your finals, by the way!
@galadrielspitcher - Thank you! Thankfully I only have one more final left, then no more school stress for a month
It’s really awesome to find people who understand uncontrollable bad habits, it makes everything a little more easier! ^__^
Yeah, I know this is a super late comment but I just saw this in your related posts. I have that same problem, my fingers look disgusting but I just can’t stop. Um…self cannibalism ftw? D:
@PhoenixResilience - My fiancee’s fingers look nicer than mine haha! Totally ftw!
I do the same thing
I try to stop but then the uneven skin makes it worse