Not too long ago I went to my ex boyfriend’s house to visit my darling little puppy. I took lots of photographs like a proud mommy, and I’ve decided to share them with you guys.

My ex boyfriend was dog sitting for his friends, and I just thought this puppy was incredibly beautiful.

For an added bonus, here are some pictures from October that I took of my puppy!

What the hay, here are some when we first bought her!

Here’s my fat black lab when she was a tiny baby.

Before:

After:

Here’s last but not least, my Eddie Spaghetti

(He’s much skinnier now)

Eddie isn’t much for pictures, but I’ll post more of him later :3

If you’re a fan of Youtube’s makeup guru Kandee Johnson, then you have probably already seen this very easy heart shaped cinnamon roll tutorial. If not, feel free to click the youtube video below or click here for a direct link to her blog.

I made these with my boyfriend a few weeks ago, and they came out delicious. It’s extremely simple too! All you do is buy pre-made cinnamon rolls from Pillsbury (or any instant cinnamon rolls of your choice) and roll/form them into hearts.

Here’s an “aerial” view of them

I didn’t exactly take the time to ice the cinnamon rolls with perfection because I was hungry and wanted them asap…sooo here’s my crappy iced completion of them.

Since the semester is ending next week, my friends and I have already exchanged our Christmas gift. My friend bought the Orbeez Foot Spa as my Christmas gift. If you’re unsure of what this is, check out the video below.

This toy is definitely addicting, and is actually quite a good foot relaxer despite being a children’s toy. It comes with a placement for your batteries, but since it doesnt really massage your feet with vibrations or anything, it’s not neccessary (which is good). The batteries are only needed if you want them to rotate into your “manicure” bowls. Which it really doesn’t make any sense because they don’t do anything for your fingers, they’re just for rolling against your feet.

The orbeez are really squishy, and is fun to play with. I had my boyfriend try them out.

He even got a “MANicure” hehe

It’s a bit messy because the balls can bounce and fly out everywhere, but other than that, it’s super fun. My boyfriend even enjoyed himself, and ended up getting his feet massaged for thirty minutes.

Look painful?

Trust me, it is.

It is officially finals week and the stress is finally taking a toll on my body. It’s getting to the point where doing simple tasks with my hands is a challenge. I mean, if you need me to open a tightly sealed bag, I would try…but it would get you nowhere.

I feel like a freak when I look at my fingers. It’s like I’m diseased, like I’ve infected myself with the most incurable of illnesses. Except, to me it’s not an illness. I feel as if this is just a bad habit that I should be able to stop..and I can’t. I want to be able to stop, but it seems impossible. When I confide in people they just tell me to stop..which aggravates me like no other.

Do you think I’m picking my flesh for the fun of it? If I could stop don’t you think I would? Try telling an alcoholic to simply not drink anymore, if you’re a smoker why don’t you just stop? Not so easy is it? Ugh….I think I need gloves permanently glued to my hands.

I’ve always known that I have wanted children one day. Now, I know for a fact I’m not ready for motherhood, and I won’t be for a very long time. All I know is, is that I want to adopt a baby from Asia and have one of my own.

I’m not one of those weird people that are infatuated with Asian people, and want to adopt an Asian baby for some weird obsession. You see, I’m half Asian and I grew up in a city that is prodominantly white. I never got to really know people of the same culture as me, and for my entire life I have longed to be part of it. I guess that’s why adopting an Asian child is so important to me. So I can have a child that is a part of my culture, and that I can share something with. Plus, I want to adopt because there are so many children without homes. Why give birth to multiple children, when I could adopt and give a child a loving forever home? They’ll be loved just the same.

I’ve even thought of names I like.

Girls:
-Fionna Violet S.
-Kaileena
-Charlotte
-Amelie
-Aurora

Boys:
-Orlando S.
-Elias
-Milos
-Orion
-Tobias

I must be utterly insane.

Getting into the wedding fantasy portion of my pre life crisis..

I wouldn’t want a huge wedding with people that I never socialize with. I would only want our best of friends there and of course close family. I feel like when some people get married they go ape shit crazy and just want to invite everyone they can to their wedding….but that’s sooo expensive!

I also think winter weddings are so magical. I probably will most likely NOT have one though since my boyfriend absolutely despises the cold weather. I just want my future wedding to be so surreal, that when I look back at our pictures it’ll seem like we were in a fantasy world. I want it to be that perfect! I mean, look at how wonderful these pictures are:

As for the dress, I have no freaking clue. I have a feeling I’ll have to try on like…the entire store until I find the perfect one..which I’m totally okay with. All I know is, I want to look gorgeous. Which brings me to these photographs of grooms seeing their bride for the first time.

These pictures make me all warm and fuzzy inside. I just hope that when I get married, my groom will have the same reaction when he sees me. I want him to be so taken with me that he tears up, because I know I’ll definitely have tears. I want to look so gorgeous that he’ll shit his tuxedo…but seriously I WANT TEARS DAMNIT! Hahaha *simmers down*

With my luck though, when he sees me for the first time it’ll look like this:

*cringe*

That’s all I have to say about that.

This is how I’m going to be until I know Daryl will be okay in February.

I F*CKING SWEAR THOUGH! He’s my favorite character, and I’ve never felt so worried about a fictional character in my life.

F*CK FUC* FUC*

You know how men that are middle aged want to buy sports cars once they’re going through a midlife crisis? Or how women going through menopause want to just relive their life and do something amazing? I think I’m going through the opposite of that.

At the young age of 21 I find myself CONSTANTLY thinking about getting married and having a family. I’m not sure if this is normal, because I have never once had a normal or ordinary thought in my mind..like ever. I guess since I’m nearing that age of settling down, and having an actual grown up life on my own doesn’t seem to be so distant anymore, the thought of marriage tends to linger.

I never was one of those little girls that planned out their weddings. So the fact that I’m thinking about it now is really strange to me. I mean sure, I thought about it when I was younger. I knew I wanted to get married one day, but I never daydreamed about it….not like I do now.

My boyfriend and I have discussed it briefly. We both came to the realization that we want to get married to one another one day, but that was the end of it. I guess since I am a female, I want to plan things out and talk about it more..but A) I don’t want to creep him out B) I don’t want to be annoying and C) It’s way too soon to actually be discussing this any further. I guess that’s why I’m blogging about it now, to get every single strange thought out of my head.

I mean hell, I’ve even thought about what kind of a marriage proposal I’d want. Something big and drastic? Something super cheesy and cliche? Hmm…which one, which one? In all honesty though, I would just want it to be something sweet that he thought of himself. I wouldn’t want anyone around us. To me, I feel like it should be something personal that should just be shared between the two of us. I wouldn’t want a bunch of eyes staring, people making unneccesary applauding sounds, or those aggravating people who make those annoying “awwww” sounds because they feel like they need to be heard. I would want it to feel as if we were the only two people that existed. I’d want it to be completely random as well, ie the two of us doing some daily chore. Then WHAMMO, I’m totally caught off guard by him being on one knee. *sigh* How wonderful.

Oh and this ring is the most beautiful ring I have ever seen <3

Fuc* people that what an expensive ring, I think that’s incredibly stupid. This ring is cubic zirconia, and I think it’s perfect as can be. (Plus, it’s like $50 and looks like $1,000,000 hehehe)

My dermatillomania was acting up quite a bit last week. I’m assuming that since my stress level has been rising due to the end of the semester and upcoming finals, my subconscious has decided to resort to picking.

Sorry for the random towel picture of me haha.

When this picking happened I had (obviously) just finished up with my shower. Most times when this happens I find myself in a trance. It’s like, the second I find something wrong with my skin, or think of something stressful, I just pick for what seems like hours. I think when this picking happened, I was picking for a straight twenty minutes until I realized that I had picked to the point of bleeding. You would think that with all the pain my fingers end up feeling I would stop.

Anyways, that’s my dermatillomania for you.